UGH! MM is not dealing well with the time change. She is getting up before 5 every day & is exhausted & falling asleep before 6pm. We are trying to get her back on schedule. She came busting into my room this morning while I was trying to quietly get dressed for work. Needless to say, she scared the poop out of me!
Now for the update on my appointment. I am scared, but doing okay. I have to have an angiogram (it is like a heart cath, but they look at other vessels, not your heart)in a few weeks. They are going to check to see how big the narrowing is in my abdominal aorta & in my renal arteries. He wants to check the renal arteries since one test says I have renal artery stenosis & one says I do not. I asked if that meant just doing an angioplasty or a stent when he looks. He said he feels that with how large it appears on ultrasound (even though ultrasound tends to make it a little bigger) & the location of it, that is most likely can not be stented. He says I will probably be looking at a bypass graph on my aorta. He says it is good they found this cause most people die from it. I am keeping my fingers crossed that it can be stented. I am keeping the attitude that I have when it comes to dealing with MM's docs. They always give worse case scenario & then things often turn out a little better than that.
I don't know. I guess I know too much & am trying to be naive. I really am scared $hitless. I put up a good front for everyone else so they won't be scared. What if they can't fix it & I have to have a major surgery? What if something bad happens to me? What will happen with me being down from a major surgery for so long? How will I care for MM? Who will help take care of MM & me? Who will help take care of MM if something does happen to me? The stakes are high any way, but they are even higher with a SNK to take care of. We don't have a whole lot of support here- mostly my mom & dad then a few friends. MM will only stay with my mom or DH.
They have to get me fixed though cause we still have a lot ahead of us. We got a lot of livin' to do (as the song goes).
Just please, if you get a moment, can you pray that things will be better than they think? Maybe if we storm heaven, it will work out. Thanks everyone. I am off to bed to try to sleep. Nov 24 can't get here fast enough...
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