Autism, you win this weekend. I am beat down, wore down, exhausted & brokenhearted.I am in desperate need of a break from it all. I don't know how, when or where I can get one. Actually, ASD has been winning the past few weeks. It has gone from bad to worse. It is so sad to be praying she is getting sick & that would explain why she has been so out of sync, stimming & just "not here".
I am scared I am losing her. I know that I have said this before. She has always "come back" to her degree, but it terrifies me each & every time. I keep questioning myself: Is this it?
We also got a rough report from school on her behavior. Therapy evals are in for our private PT, OT. Very little gains made. Still stuck in the same age month we have been in forever. I am getting the feeling that this is as good as it gets. She is 6 1/2. We are still stuck around the 36 months mark motorically (just made up my own word). Am I wasting my time & money going to therapy every week?
I know so many of you would trade places with me in a heartbeat to even get here.